Mount. Timpanogos, Utah
Today I was part of an event that made me think about the relationships and comradery that are essential to healing. The same type of comradery we find in the military. The same type of events and relationships that have kept me healthy in the past. I’ve been so hesitant to participate in these events in the last year, not because I don’t want to…quite on the contrary. Mental illness has kept me away from all that I know and love in my heart.
First the people…there is so much love out there and understanding, and I’ve been so “sick” or rather in an “episode” that it's been extremely difficult to reciprocate. I’m actually completely aware of the onset of this episode but it’s like there’s nothing you can do. I mean, there are the skills and techniques that I’ve learned over the years but, when there are so many different life stressors involved, you feel bombarded. I feel like there is nothing I can do. But there ARE things I can do to help me in the moment. It won’t solve any particular issue, but it can make it more manageable. I would highly recommend getting the DBT (Dialectal Behavioral Therapy) workbook if your interested in learning some useful skills.
Mount. Timpanogos, Utah
Second are the events or rather the mountain ultra-marathons which I love to run. Today I stepped out of my “bubble,” and volunteered at a local run. I know for certainty the giving of my time to serve others helps me tremendously. I haven’t been on a course in over a year and toeing that line of service was amazing. Watching the runners coming in with thanks and gratitude that we were there lifted my spirits. I can recall many times being grateful for that aid station and a little water. Service to others is paramount in my healing.
Am I still struggling, yes! But that doesn’t preclude me from stepping outside myself and doing for others. Why would I expect others to do for me if it’s not reciprocated in some fashion? Was today hard, ABSOLUTELY, but was it worth it…unequivocally yes. My life depends on it, literally! Be kind, always!!! You don’t know somebody’s struggles under that façade of a smile and warm greeting. Get to know those around you, you may save a life.
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