Today was a different kind of day, at least different from the past year and a half. I woke up with energy. An energy that was strangely familiar. But one I haven’t’ felt in so long. I woke up with a light that had all but been extinguished, diminished to a point of uncertainty that it would ever shine bright again. But today was different in the sense that I felt alive. Alive in the prospect of new opportunities, of new beginnings and new horizons.
It's hard to articulate how I’m feeling now. I’ve been so reclusive both physically, mentally, and emotionally. But today I felt like the shell had been broken, the butterfly emerging from the cocoon for the first time. The sun was shining brightly, and the river was freely flowing. Like my soul shining brightly on the dawn of a new day waiting for the happiness to follow. But it doesn’t always follow, at least it hasn’t in the past year. But today, today it arrived, the peacefulness, happiness, and everything in between.
I’ve waited, suffered, tormented, and nearly exhausted myself in pursuit of how I felt today. That serene feeling where you just feel a peacefulness within. When your serenity is taken from you every little minute thing is a victory. From getting out of bed to taking a shower to leaving the house. Normally easy tasks that we don’t think about. But these simple things are a struggle on the hard days. I’m grateful for today, grateful for how I feel and grateful for those who accept me for me. Today was a good day!
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